today feel down abit :(

haiz! today make 2 mistake
first thing is i broke plate then waste 2 food :(
second thing is i over bake something
this 2 thing make me feel down
don know want find who to talk with
so write at here
express it
but still feel talk is more better
arhhh!!　
i feel that i make a lot of mistake !!!
2 times late wake when work at morning shift
my English still very poor!!!
today think many thing about my mistake and weakness
haiz!
sometime i smile in font of everyone does not mean i`m happy with what i have
feel too many thing to think, do, care !!
express it with tears? after that i think will be okay for awhile

sorry to all friends that IF had make mistake or scold you all before
and thanks for scolding or say me
seriously say i don want to make a mistake
and sometime too angry or playful said something hurt you all
hopefully you all will forgive me

don know why my brain can`t concentrate is because of what?
when small i accident? or i lazy? then become like that?
haiz!!@#
my english also very poor
many of the english word that my friend write want, i also no understand and must check dictionary to know the meaing !!!
and i don know how to write the english word and i need check dictionary to check the spelling ._.
haiz!@#$
i want to improve!!!

sometime really think i am useless @#
haiz~

now got many trainee from UTAR kampar d
girl many then boy
alwin and angeline keep gossip them
then angeline ask me which girl pretty
that i say that one quite okay la
face look pretty but inside don know la
she say me 眼光 so poor
seriously my dream girl does not need very pretty
and pretty does not mean inside good
so i just want a
girl friend that no need so pretty, good heart, can eat suffer, can 体谅 me, appreciate each other
for sure this must apply to me
and is hard to find because no one is 100%
at least 80%- 90%
because everyone 眼光 not same
i know i had make 1st time mistake and 2nd time mistake
so i wont 3rd time happen
like other people say and my thinking
work first then just slowly find
i just need a simple life, simple girlfriend, simple work